sepi.

one blog post.
one comment.
i was reminded of that scene in Sepi at the playground.
would it be like that for you?
would you go to the playground one day and hope to find the love of your life.
the only one? only to find that he has gone?

may you find happiness, amin.
it's really happening, but i'm praying for your eternal happiness.
i guess that's all we can pray for?
because... just because...

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3 names.
19 April 2008.
traumatic scenes running through my head.
i have a terrible feeling at the pit of my stomach.
terrible. i guess i've tried hard to get over it, but it's there still, somewhere.
a part of it. not big, but there.

please don't do what you did to me again.
please.
i need you to stay out and leave us in our bliss... a bliss you almost took away...
because... i deserve it...
i really do.