November 30, 2012

these days.

"You've got wits, you've got looks, You've got passion, but I swear that you've got me all wrong."
-Dashboard Confessional

Now, what have I been up to these days? Sometimes, I really don’t know. There have been days when hours pass by and the next thing I know, it’s already 7 p.m. and I’m packing my bags to go home.

And then suddenly, it’s the next morning again.

My days these days typically begin at 4.30 a.m. I’ve seen people’s eyeballs go as wide as saucers when I say that, and of course I understand since I used to think of 4.30 a.m. as really early as well. Until I got better at waking up at that same time every single day, of course. Thereafter, it was just natural to remain awake from those wee hours of the morning until the next bed time.

You see, starting the day early makes a whole load of difference on how the day will turn out for me. By beginning early, I can ensure that bottles are washed and sterilised properly, that Luqman’s clothes are washed, that I get to have a proper bath, that I get to pray without being rushed, that I get to put on my scarf properly so that I am presentable enough for office, and that I sometimes get to slip in a little bit of housework as well... and so that I get to watch my son sleep, and be there when he wakes up calling for me.

Though everything I’ve just said above seems like a mouthful (and mind you, it is!), having enough time for everything, while accommodating everyone’s interest (mine included) keeps me sane.  

And for me, at this point in time, staying sane from one day to another is the most paramount consideration.

I’d like to think that my efforts aren’t negligible and I’m hoping that that’s how it seems to others too. Not that I need to prove myself to anyone, of course, but sometimes, even our best efforts are just not enough.

In the end, our struggles are our own. So, let’s just move in our own way. Because I swear that you've got me all wrong.

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November 23, 2012

it's been a (long) while.

“The hardest part of ending is starting again.” –Linkin Park 

It’s been a (long) while now, hasn’t it? Yep.

And the above statement rings so much truth about my “blogging state of mind”.

Oftentimes, when a hiatus takes place in my blog, I blame microblogging i.e. Twitter. But I can’t. Not anymore. Not this time. Because I’m not even tweeting to my heart’s content these days. I’m just… not.

Not sure about anything. 
Not sure about what can and cannot be said. 
Not sure about what should and what should not be said. 
Not sure if something is blog-worthy enough to be blogged about. 

There are times when I’m not even sure of how I feel about things. 

When truth is, I’ve been fine. Super duper fine. Like more than fine kind of fine.

People say, “things don’t get any easier, we just get better.” And that, my dears, is true on so many different levels.

And likewise with me, I’ve gotten the hang of things and how things have changed for all of us.

Now that I’ve got the ball rolling with this post, let’s hope I won’t stop blogging.

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November 02, 2012

Just saying.

Bila lelaki dah kahwin dan dia nampak tak terurus, sebagai contoh: baju berkedut, seluar tak bergosok, rambut tidak disikat rapi, seluar dalam koyak dan singelet lunyai, pasti ada mulut-mulut yang kata, “Kesiannya dia. Wife dia tak jaga.”

Tapi, kalau perempuan yang dah kahwin keluar dengan baju berkedut, seluar tak bergosok, tudung senget-senget, panties koyak dan bra rupa tak semenggah (menyebabkan buah pun rupa tak berapa semenggah), tambah pulak dengan muntah anak lekat kat baju, mulut yang sama juga akan kata, “Ish dia ni, dah kahwin terus tak reti nak jaga diri.”

Kenapa kalau lelaki berkahwin tak terurus salah wife dia dan perempuan dah kahwin tak terurus pun salah wife juga?

Dan biasanya yang komen tu mesti perempuan belum kahwin atau dah kahwin tapi belum ada anak.

Fikir-fikirkan lah.
Just saying.

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