June 16, 2011

Auntie Kakak.

Believe it or not, I’ve never ever held a newborn in my arms before. I’m too scared they would break. I’m scared that they would cry. I’m always scared of newborn babies. And I know that it makes no sense seeing how small they are but the reality is that – newborn babies terrify me to a certain extent.

Most of my good friends have either delivered, awaiting arrival of newborns or expecting. Tuan badan belum rasa pressure, anda pun tak patut pressure untuk saya. Isu selingan. Tibe-tibe.

Anyways, back to newborns.

I have been following Lynn’s pregnancy journey quite closely. Why wouldn’t I? She is one of my best friends and she beautifully recorded her pregnancy in a way most people don’t – she doesn’t sugar coat it and makes you feel like, “Hey, you don’t have to panic just because you’re going to be a first time mom. You just have to learn to accept everything and expect nothing.” The last bit was exactly what Lynn said.

So, since she was so kind to share with us her pregnancy updates, I got the feeling last weekend that it was “time”. Boleh? Anak orang lain, aku yang menyebok. Hahah. So, I asked Lynn how she was doing and she said it could be any time “tapi tak sure budak kecik ni bila dia nak keluar”.

When I was at Empire on Sunday, Sopex messaged me to ask me whether we had any plans to visit Lynn since she was at Ampang Puteri, but I thought it would be a good idea to wait until she delivered before we brought our Pretty Lil’ Party there.

So, we waited.

And then, the message of the arrival of the precious lil’ one came on 13th June 2011 and I was overwhelmed with all sorts of feelings. I wished that I was one of the first few to hold the lil’ princess but duty calls and I couldn’t get off work. But yesterday, I cleared my work at supersonic speed and at the very first opportunity, I packed my bags and headed home. And then off we went to see dear darling Tyana, at 2 days old.

And that’s where I held a newborn baby for the first time ever in my life.

It was quite an experience.

It’s just one of those things I don’t think I’d ever forget and I became quite emotional last night. Not in the “I’m going to cry for no reason” kind of way, just “I’ve got bile in my throat” feeling all night long.

Dearest Tyana,

Please know that even at this point in time, you’ve already got 157 aunties + 1 mummy already loving you and saying how adorable you are. You truly are precious and please know that 4 of mummy’s friends here love you as if you are our own sebab Auntie Nad, Auntie Tasha, Auntie Nem and myself, bangun pagi je terus rindu dekat Tyana. You truly are very precious. We were so noisy yesterday, but you just slept in my arms like an angel. We're so sorry we're so noisy like all the time. We're just very excited on your arrival. Your birth has brought many people together. Like how I saw my friend whom I haven't met in about a year yesterday. You have no idea how much you make our hearts melt and how we can stare at you for hours, even though all you really do is sleep. Thank you for not crying when I held you yesterday. I was glad that my first experience holding a newborn - it was you. 

Love, Auntie Kakak.

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Nina said...

awwww... soo sweeetttt!

newborn babies looks super fragile! sampai skrg I tak berani pegang!

KUDOS to you! LOL

Haneesa said...

heheh. memang diorang fragile pun! tapi i managed quite well the other day, sampai rasa proud gila :)

tmc said...

omg kakakkkk! this post is beaautifulllll!!!
i wana see the lil cupcake!:'(

Haneesa said...

tmc: heheh. don't worry dear. in good time, you'll be holding your own lil' cupcake in your arms :) insyaAllah. :)

Helinomics said...

awwww kakakkkk, im sure tyana is very grateful to know this! so do i as a mother, really appreciate ur love and care for tyana :)

we miss u too auntie kakak ! come over to setiawangsa anytime k!

Haneesa said...