endorphins

When times are tough, it's always nice to know that you've got endorphins to perk you up.
And I'm lucky because I was given the oppportunity to (finally!) taste that yummy gooey chocolate cake everyone has been talking about.

I first ordered this for Nadnad's Bachelorette. At first, I wanted to order from Wondermilk since they are so cute and everything, but I personally don't fancy too much buttercream (and obviously) a HUGE fan of chocolate, so I looked this lady up.

 (at this time dah habis so many pieces dah. heeee)

I've always believed that mommies are magical in their own ways. And since this lady is a mother herself, my gut told me that nothing can go wrong with her chocolate cake. Not only is the cake reasonably priced, it also looks soooo, soooo good in pictures.

 And I was right. I haven't heard the last of that cake since Nadnad's Bachelorette alright!

And yesterday, Nadnad was kind enough to give me some! Yeayness! That was the ultimate cure to my day, I tell you. It's seriously, seriously, seriously sedap! Even endorsed by Master Chef K (my mom, who also bakes), so you've got to believe it!

See, even the tupperware is smiling because it contains good food inside. So, apa lagi! Call this lady up and get your piece of cake today!

Remember, the next time you decide to order something, always, always look for home-based businesses operated by mommies. Works like magic.

On the same note, dinner last night was somewhat amazing. Although Mama just made her nasi goreng special, simple sambal udang, fried some eggs and nuggets, we were eating like hungry piranhas! Kan dah cakap, mommies memang magic :) (walaupun kadang-kadang gerammmm sangat rasa nak marah) Heee

And now, off to work I go.

One more day to futsal. And 2 days to my weekend. Happiness!






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masuk kasut dalam boot.

I don't hold grudges; I just tend to remember things I cannot forget. 

- Haneesa

With me, be careful what you say. I don't only listen. I also remember.

On an unrelated albeit happier note, mari pack bag futsal. Although it's on Thursday, which is 2 days away.

MUSTNOTFORGETSHOESMUSTNOTFORGETSHOES MUSTNOTFORGETSHOESMUSTNOTFORGETSHOES

 MUSTNOTFORGETSHOES

MUST

NOT

FORGET

 SHOES.

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all by myself.

Yesterday, I felt like I wanted to be alone. I have not spent a quiet weekend with myself in the longest time. It's always about someone else's event, or someone else's needs that I need to attend to. Though I have my own things to do, I put everything on hold because I care enough to stop in my tracks for the people I love and care about. 

And where work is concerned, most of the time, I don't really have that much of a choice. Sometimes, I am surrounded by inefficient and ineffective people who affect me in so many ways that I can't be bothered explaining how pissed I am anymore. 

As selfish as it sounds, I am in dire need of some time alone. I've got to stop putting other people before me too much. I've got to stop being so selfless.I've got to quit being myself for a while.

Not that I enjoy being a loner so much or that loneliness is my bestfriend or anything. But I just need that "session" or slot, where I can pluck my earphones into my ears and take a long walk, hike whatever you might call it in the park or on Broga Hill or anywhere which allows me to sweat and think, simultaneously. I'd also like to take better photos. My unhappiness is affecting my want and ability to capture moments. I just can't be bothered anymore.

And though I anticipate this week to be a long week because of reasons which shall not be disclosed, I WILL take off on Friday, AS PLANNED. If no one has the time to look into the things I want, I'll do it myself.

Til Friday. Pray me a good week.

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it's okay, but only if.

I'll be okay if all this happens and it's not a Friday. But today is Friday and I'm beyond pissed off.
Cancelled Friday Lunch Date for me.
A long evening at work for me when I already have other plans for later.
I have not met him for a week.
I have no mood to eat nor to do anything.
And I'm annoyed that some people find it sooo difficult to reply their emails. Especially when people are trying to give them business. Lupa customer service agaknya memandangkan dah popular sangat.

See? I'm being angry for no reason.



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While I'm waiting.

I am currently waiting for one of the Legal Advisers of a particular Department to arrive. Jam 10 kata dia. Sekarang dah jam 10.15. Takpa, jangan buruk sangka. Mungkin susah nak dapat parking

I have been watching way too many cooking shows of late. It's making me crazy; the fact that my job is not like that and that I don't really have the time to really experiment on new dishes as and when I please. I love watching programs like Chef at Home, The Iron Chef, Nigella and King of Grill, not only because their food look super tasty, but also because they dish out food tips and secrets all the time. 

Like how I found out that there are different types of potatoes for diffrent potato dishes and that vanilla is the 2nd most expensive spice. I know, pelik right? I didn't even know that vanilla is a spice. And of course I can't remember all the tips off the hook now, but it makes cooking seem alot more interesting than it already is.

I don't know what's up with our cooks though. Proud as I am that they have made their way into AFC, it's still a tad embarassing how sophisticated and matured others can be while our chefs look like all they're really into are the 15 minutes of fame they are granted. But I may be too hard on them. Maybe. I still think we need to increase our general knowledge on food, culture and all things related though. It's nice to have a knowledgeable host on the TV.

Anyways, the Legal Adviser is here. Panjang umur dia. 

Smarties, masih baca tak blog saya? 

nah baca ni

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perisa apa?

Precisely.

Actually, I did this quiz to see what my favourite  ice cream flavour indicates about my personality. So, I Googled. After quizzing myself for a few short minutes, I came out with the above results. Turns out that my personality is tied up with my favourite ice cream.

I was actually asked about my personality; some questions about what I liked and how I liked things to be instead of me telling them my favourite flavour and them telling me what my personality is.! And then, they told me that I was Butter Pecan! Ahh! Precisely. Sungguh pandai! Because that is my most favourite ice cream.

So, I'm tagging whoever is reading this: Try out this quiz. It'll only take a few minutes, I promise. Only 12 questions and then, you'll know what's your flavour.

Though I am mostly Butter Pecan, I am also made out of Choco Chip, Strawberry, Chocolate and Vanilla, each making up 11.1% of my personality :)

But I'm still quite pleased to be Butter Pecan. Because I like Butterscotch and Pecan cookies, Butter Pecan ice cream, Pecan cupcakes and all else pecan. Mana nak dapat Pecan Pie? Nak rasa pulak.

So anyways, go! Try!

It would be nice if you could buzz me and share your results as well :)





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oh, nyum.

I really wanted cupcakes yesterday evening. I knew that if I didn't go and get them, I would die of salivation. Oh, the drama, I know. But it's true. I couldn't help myself. All the way when I was stuck in the traffic, all I could think of were the cupcakes. And ironically, though I make them myself, I have never really been a fan of buttercream. So, when I say that I HAVE to have it. I just HAD to get it. Yeap, you get it, I know. 

Parked my car at Petronas. I couldn't be bothered to find a parking spot at The Curve or Tesco because I was just going to be a minute. I knew it. I just needed to go there and smell the cupcakes. I could even change my mind once I reached the shop. But having gone through all that crazy Mutiara traffic, I wasn't about to go home empty-handed.

And so, I ran. Sort of. I couldn't help myself. It's like the cupcakes were calling me non-stop and I didn't care how I was going to get there. All I knew was that I would get them no matter what. And guess what? All the way, I was running in these:

Ahahaha. Tell me I'm crazy even though I'm not.

And when I finally reached the counter, the cashier was trying to lure me into buying 6 cupcakes. I only needed one. But I wanted two. And now, this guy here is telling me to get 6? I was really considering. Thought that maybe this morning I could do a round of  "Father Christmas Activities". Maybe give 1 to Nadnad. One to Navee. One to Ira. One to Sya. Oh, I was just too tempted.

But I had enough sense to get only 2. Sorry, harapan palsu ;p

And finally, after driving home in topmost speed, I present to thee:

My treasured possessions. 

Oh, puas sangat hati! Now, all I need are:

• smoked mackerel. is anyone going to the UK? can you please get me these at Sainsbury's or Tesco or wherever? or are they here in Malaysia?
• sesame bagels from M&S. are they here in Malaysia? because I sort of need them at the moment. 

Actually, I thought of more in the car on the way to work. But they seem to have slipped my mind. Will update more later, I guess. Go get your cupcakes! They are worth every single step you take.

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clean slate.

It's Monday and no, I am not feeling lazy, down or on the Blues Bandwagon with the rest of the world. In fact, I'm pretty psyched about nothing. I am determined to make this week work wonders for me. And that began with me giving myself a good treat during lunch. I got myself a Trophy (ice cream) and you have no idea how good it felt like to sink my teeth into that sweet vanilla and chocolate.

It's the 22nd of March and in 9 days, this month will end. This month has been hectic for me and there are no signs that it will slow down. There are so many things that I need to do but I just don't feel like doing them all in this month, get it? It's a little bit silly, I know. To procrastinate is in itself a silly thing to do; what more to procrastinate and to carry everything forward to the next month when they could very well be over and done with like now.

But I cannot help it. I somehow feel like I have set this month aside for certain things and I am currenly content to leave it at it's status quo. So, whatever is there for me to do will be done next month. I know that 9 days is such a waste of time. Time waits for no one. A minute will make a difference to your decisions. But I need to slow down somehow. This fast pace is not doing me any good.

Most importantly, I need to begin on a clean slate. Because I have a good feeling that next month would somehow or rather be better.

It's a sleepy afternoon and I've got the thickest document on my table for me to vet. I've started a bit and I'm starting to feel annoyed by the bad use of language. My English is not perfect, no, but to have so many mistakes like "the followings" (when it should be "the following"), "shall means" (shall mean) and "upon requested" (when it should be "upon request") is just making my blood go upstairs. Haish.

Probably, it's time for me to get some cupcakes. What's up with me and sweet things? Tsk.

I would really like to get my dose of happy today, but he seems so busy. And I'm busy too.

April, come quick. I need the clean slate.

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good good

// edited with photos

I had a really good weekend if I subtract Friday out of the equation. Shall elaborate on Friday later I guess.

Anyways, Saturday was great because I got to meet my cousins. Though we just met a few weeks ago at Fah's place, at that time, it just wasn't enough! There were too many stories being crammed in at once. Plus there was Baby Aisy so all the attention automatically went to him. Attention which we of course willingly gave :)

So, last night was pretty amazing for us cousins. Not only did we get to camwhore like crazy, we also managed to include a few impromptu singing sessions (of which they recorded and I hope they will not post) and it was all good. The one setback from last night is that Becky disappeared without a trace. It was sooo shocking and sad and disappointing because we know that she wouldn't miss it for the world. No one gave us a proper answer when asked so I think you owe us an explanation Becks! Are you okay??

Anyways, last night was one of the longest periods our mummies chit-chatted with each other. Normally they would be done by 10+ but last night, we all went back home close to midnight. All the girls had already dozed off in Na's room. That was the first time we were really happy to be called home.

*****

I spent this morning with Adik at OU. Since she has pretty much everything, I couldn't figure out what a girl like her would need for her birthday, so I figured that the best gift I could give her was a lil' treat at Delicious.

We really ate alright! Okay, maybe I ate more, but it was all in good fun!The food was good as usual and this time around, I did not get all adventurous and ordered a proper hearty normal breakfast! No more chocolate brioche or mascarpone for me this time round thank you.

Since we were pressed for time (Adik had to go back to school), we couldn't do much anyways. But before we went back, we managed to get a round of camwhoring at Dream World (sticky photos).

I have not done that for the longest time I tell you! It was sooooo much fun that we didn't really want to stop if there was no limit and if we didn't receive a message from Mama telling us not to be too late.

Anyways, though I like dresses, I am definitely not a tube dress girl. So, when a friend got me a tube dress for my birthday, I was torn. I mean, the dress is nice and everything, but I just couldn't see myself wearing it. I don't even own a tube, what more a tube dress. So, I improvised. But my internet is giving me a hard time so I can't post any photos right now.

*Sigh*

Tomorrow's a working day. And I'm annoyed by this tiny keyboard on which I currently have to work on. Left my cable at the office. So, I have to use my dad's.

Tomorrow's a Monday. *Cry*

last night.

Last night was one of the happiest nights of my working life. Yet, last night was one of the saddest ones too. I felt like I let my team down. Even if I was not the one who let them down. There were certain unavoidable surrounding circumstances which were... unavoidable I guess? Although we knew at some point that nothing we do would ever be good enough, last night, we knew we deserved the recognition. That's the least they could have done; to grant us what is due to us. But they didn't.

No one is willing to admit an underdog as a champion. No one wants to acknowledge the fact that we were good. Not even when the Top Most Man and all his colleagues were laughing their hearts out throughout the 6 minutes of fame in which we made our break. We knew that everyone had the time of their lives last night. We knew that the cast, crew, audience, supporters and non-supporters alike loved it. But, of course, the people who loved it and love us are those without the powers in their hands.

We know that better respect could have been given to us and to our Division. It's not about the prize because we never even knew what the prize was to begin with. It's about our pride. And I have a very proud team and for that, my heart breaks every time I try to tell them that it's okay. Because I'm not okay too.

All that aside, we raked in so many good reviews. My very honest bosses were so impressed, they found themselves gaping at my team's talent at some point when the performance was being aired. Yes, we were that good. I loved all the last minute improvisations that my team made and how they managed to do it so flawlessly as if it were all part of the plan. They did me good. They make me so proud. I almost cried last night when they performed; not only because they are my team, but because they were really, really good. Trust me. I will post a video once I get hold of one.

Congratulations to my supportive team. I have never worked with this kind of team before whose dedication is unfailing and whose support, love and cooperation towards each other promise nothing other than greater heights. I am sorry if I let you down. But trust me, in my heart you are all winners in your own right. You did me good and gave me one of the best 3 weeks in my working life for me to remember always.

hoppety hop!

Today is the day that all our hard work for the past 3 weeks will finally pay off. No, we are not sure that we will win it. We're not even sure we will be considered because around here, that's the way it works. There's a certain kind of stereotyping which slaps "Not Good Enough" on our foreheads, no matter how good we are. So, we're all in for the fun, actually. Which is good. Which is exactly how I want it to be.

I feel so good that I managed to get the boat rowing in the same direction and that everyone in it is rowing together. It feels amazing.

I'm currently on a blog hopping frenzy and this post is going to sound just as hoppy since my mind's obviously not here entirely. I just received a friendly reminder message from my lil' cousin. I think I should pay heed to her message for fear that I turn into her fiend. And I don't want that to happen because I still need her. Hehehe..

Oh God, I just remembered that I left my newly renewed road tax at home. Let's hope I don't get stopped or else, I'll have to bring the mata-mata back to my house just to prove that I have done the necessary already.

By the way, I'm kind of stuck on a particular photographer's work. His work is outstanding to say the least. I think he's got the neck for "moments". Get it? The type who will capture your photo when you're not looking yet make you look so good all the same.

I don't know if I will be level or even half as great as that.

At the rate that I am going, my photography is basically going downhill. (Sebab charger battery pon boleh terlupa bawak). Tsk.

We saw something during lunch which took our breaths away. It was so amazing that that's all we talk about right now.

My friend just commented on the state of my room. She came in and said, "OMG your room looks like...." and I finished it for her "Like a storeroom". Actually, it looks alot like a pigsty. We're sending props we didn't use yesterday down to the back of the hall to avoid traffic at the elevator later on.

I can't wait to be done with tonight! I hope my team does well!