a life fulfilled, and well-lived.

Too many deaths this year -- of people distant and close, and from all of them, we learned lessons--

-- that the biggest regrets come, not from the fights or misunderstandings, but rather from the robbed opportunity of saying a proper goodbye for one last time; and

-- that "life is fragile" and "life is short" gets even more real now as we grow older -- as we come to understand the fact that death really waits for no one. It really is just a matter of time.

Having seen so many different deaths -- the tragic ones, the sudden ones, the ones they knew were coming -- has cemented my belief all this while that each of us is currently running a race on our own tracks, in our own pace and against our own selves. From the many different final send-offs that I've attended thus far, all I can say is that -- a life fulfilled and well-lived, may mean a million different things for different people. 

There were times when the hospital morgue was flooded with visitors on a Friday morning. 

There were times when the mosque had to hold 3 prayer sessions on a Monday night because there were just too many people wanting to pay their last respects.

There were also times when the Thursday send-off was quiet, simple, uneventful, met with wind and a slight breeze -- yet attended by those who mattered, who cried meaningful tears, who knew the one who passed on a level that only they knew-- 

and really, after all of that, there can be no way to tell if their final send-off says anything about the life that they lived or be indicative of their final resting place in the afterlife. And it really is okay. It really isn't our place to judge. 

Alot of people I know (myself included) often wonder what the end of our lives would be like. 

And with an end goal of wanting to live a life fulfilled and well-lived, I try my best to tailor my days to achieve the end result that I hope and pray for. 

And hope that whenever it is that I shall pass, I would not be alone; or unloved. But rather, be remembered for all the good that I am, and for all the good that I've done.