the girl by the window.

 “Good things come to those who wait.”

... is a notion I’ve never really believed in. Okay, it’s not so much that I don’t believe in it, but it’s more because I hate it when it translates to leaving everything to fate, which in turn translates to us not having to do anything at all to achieve anything. Well, at least that’s how some people look at it anyways, leaving some portion of the population to become overly complacent. 

I don’t believe in such notion because I’ve always conditioned myself to believe that everything only happens with hard work and patience. Always.

So, about 5 months ago, when I was transferred to this new department, I knew that I had to keep up my hard work. Yes, having been in this playing field for a while now, I know that no matter what your grade or position is, it was going to be hard work, with the first barrier to break; the “trust wall”. I knew that once I broke that barrier, I would be okay. And to do that, I had to play the game and play it clean. And by clean I mean that I have to uphold whatever work ethics that I previously held.

But when I came here, I admit that a part of me wasn’t entirely true to my heart. There are certain things that I don’t do as a matter of principle but I did them because that was part of my so-called game plan, which is, first and foremost to fit in. I jumped onto that bandwagon, just to see what people "normally" do.

After a while, I couldn’t keep it up. I got so tired of  "normal". 

So, I toned down and went back to the old quiet self I was more comfortable with. 

That was when things turned out for the better. 

I became more productive, more disciplined, more focused and I started to understand things better, faster. 

Of course by doing that I probably spooked some people out, as they probably now think of me as less friendly than before (now that I keep most things to myself), but it's okay. I like it like that. 

These days, when I come to the office, I smile at the abundance of natural light overflowing my room. Yes, after all my hard work and patience, my boss finally directed me to move to a room (with quite a huge window, really), after 5 months of being stationed at a cubicle (yeah, yeah, big deal right? but it is to me so yeah). I'm not saying that there's anything wrong with sitting at a cubicle, in fact, I rather enjoyed it while it lasted, but some people thought it rather demeaning that I got a promotion, but was given less "perks". At first, I admit that I felt that way as well, because I had to give up such a lovely room, a new PC and my lightweight laptop at my previous work place. Those things are important to me because it makes coming to work more bearable. Now, with a window as an added bonus, you can guess how much more productive I have been, right?

So, I guess good things do come to those who wait. Tapi jika tunggu rezeki datang macam bulan jatuh ke riba tanpa usaha sewajarnya, what is there to be proud of when anything is achieved? It was all luck, and no hard work, so what's the point, bukan?

Jadi, usaha, usaha, usaha. Never stop believing in hard work. Never stop being sincere. And never stop believing that Allah hears your prayers and will reward you accordingly for believing (and being hardworking). 

"And it may be that you dislike a thing which is good for you and that you like a thing which is bad for you. Allah knows but you do not know." (Quran, 2:216)

So, Alhamdulillah, Allah has answered my prayers at the time I needed it the most and gave me a window (literally) for me to marvel at his mysterious ways. Subhanallah.