of trust, distrust and abuse of trust Part II

I used to wonder why we keep our gates closed ALL the time, and why we locked our doors even in broad daylight. I mean, I do come from that era where we simply crossed over to our neighbours’ houses WITHOUT the use of gates, and where the doors and grills of our neighbours’ houses were always open for us when we needed a drink. Kan Pear? (if Pear is reading this), she would know how boundary-less and carefree we used to be. We used to run from house to house like no one’s business in Seremban because in the first place, there wasn’t even a gate to separate my cousin’s house and her grandma’s house.

And Siti (my former neighbour) would know that we thought of each other’s houses as our own because we went in and out, NOT using the gate, like I mentioned before. And Aimi (also our former neighbour) would know what it feels like to be in a community where my mother’s children are also her mother’s children, vice versa because we weren’t THIS selfish to just mind our own businesses ALL the time, without caring what the hell is happening to the world around us.

But when I moved in to KL, I got the shock of my life because none of these things were happening. And I honestly don’t wonder anymore because nothing like the things I used to have in Seremban can ever be done here in KL. There’s just too much distrust amongst the members of the society. There are way too many GREAT con mans who know the tricks of the trade and know HOW and WHEN to tackle and trick other people.

It’s sickening to know that no one is ever going to be safe anywhere they go. It’s sad to know that MY children will be brought up in a world where I will ALWAYS have to put a leash on them although I would hate to make them feel like I am controlling. It’s sick. And don’t even let me start about the late Nurin Jazlin. Or the murder of the 9 year old who was thrown out of a condominium window after she was raped, sodomised and murdered.

What on earth do you guys see in a 9 year old? I mean, don’t you see that they are just KIDS? Not that I want any of these mentally sick people to be attracted to me, but please. Pick on somebody your own size lah. Or somebody as sickly as yourself so that the both of you would enjoy all those worldly and distorted pleasures that other people repel.

What has become of the eastern society we used to be so proud of? What has happened to the minds of the people in the world? Why has sex become the centre of most peoples’ minds? Is there NOTHING we can do to help or change the world? Would this world ever be safe, ever again? For me, for you, for our sisters and children?

I think not. And that scares the hell out of me.