I haven’t seen anyone apart from my immediate family, my in-laws, my husband, my officemates and Mamita.
So, it’s no surprise that I miss my girls a lot. It doesn’t help (me) that they all live and work close to each other. They are so accessible to each other while I feel so distant; both emotionally and physically.
So, I told them I missed them.
And the next thing I know, we were planning an impromptu coffee evening together at the obvious choice of venue – Starbucks.
There were only 4 (+1 had to go back to an emergency so kesian) of us, but there was so much to talk about. I think we stayed there until close to 8 p.m., talking about life, money, people and change.
Sopex is right. 2010 saw growth in many of us. Maturity is the name of the game now. Change is the theme. And all for the better, insyaAllah.
We came to realise that at this age, we can’t help but to be picky and choosy about whom we are friends with. It cannot be helped if we are no longer on the same page with some people because of the different wavelengths we are at.
I’m not saying that a cat can’t talk to a dog; they can eventually be friends if they try hard enough. It’s just that the language they speak becomes a (huge) barrier. So, people tend to stick to those of their own kind. It’s human nature.
I used to feel really bad about leaving this particular person in the dark as to why I suddenly distanced myself. Some phone calls have gone unanswered and many text messages have come and gone with no response. And it’s been going on for about 2 years maybe?
At first, I thought that all I needed was a little bit space. But after a while, I know for a fact that it’s more than that. I actually wanted out. I felt comfortable without. Not responding is probably not a very healthy way to tell a person I need the space/ time out, but sometimes, nothing else works apart from silence.
So to that person To Whom It May Concern, I’ve got this to say; it has got nothing to do with hate or the fact that I don’t like you. It’s just that I have come to accept the fact that I can no longer be on the same page with you and there is no more of that “comfortable silence” when we are together. Our priorities and lives have shifted and to me, there is nothing else to it when there is no logic lying in between us due to the things which have happened. It was great, but it cannot be great anymore when I fail to understand certain things and come to realise that I no longer have the energy to understand them.
I can’t help but want to talk to and meet people who understand me better. Even we may drift apart some day, but for now, I’m glad we’re friends.
To many more great impromptu evenings, girls ;)
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